I obviously no longer maintain this site/blog. I have moved to wordpress:
http://itishabitforming.wordpress.com/
I'm on there, mostly with brief clips on life, roommate, vocational stuff.
I'll be shutting this down soon.
Wanna be a Nun
Whoever loves becomes humble. Those who love have, so to speak, pawned a part of their narcissism. -- Sigmund Freud
Monday, October 14, 2013
Friday, March 1, 2013
Darkness
So much has occurred that I don't know what to tell you, or even where to begin. And yet, when I look back on my life, not much has changed either. Funny how life is.
In July 2012 I moved out of my parents' house and moved about 15 minutes away (for Los Angeles, that's a decent distance), and got an apartment with a girl friend. It's nice because it's close to my base office in Torrance and many of the stores and malls in the area.
Since November 2011 I have been working as a social worker/therapist for children. I got to watch (and inwardly cringe while) a 6 year old poured purple glitter on orange playdoh; done a few suicide contracts; discharge some, and tried to convince parents in broken Spanish how "speed" can prevent their kid from flunking the 4th grade the second year in a row.
Since moving out, a Mister Hamster has moved in; the only male allowed to spend the night. =] His name is Sam, and he's quite the quiet, neurotic introverted Syrian hamster. We're on the same temperament wave-length. Might be acquiring a Mr. Bunny in the near future...not sure though.
Finally got the depression & anxiety of the past 3 years old control thanks to chemicals: two years of insomnia finally ending, and three years of yo-yo weight changes stabilizing. Fewer headaches and migraines; less chronic back pain.
Vocation-wise: 3-4 years in the desert/darkness. I go to Mass because I obey; same for Confession, and other trappings of the faith. I started attending the Tridentine Latin Mass almost exclusively August 2011. Wait, you want to know the reason! I could not muster enough energy with depression & fatigue to withstand the Novous Ordo for more than 15 minutes, and then would sit through the rest of the Mass. With the Tridentine, I could get through past Eucharist, which was an hour into the service. I continue to be almost exclusively Tridentine; maybe 3 N.O. masses per year.
Not sure if I mentioned it here, but I had to turn down the acceptance into the convent in June 2009 due to student loans. I still have those loans. I'm a social worker by trade; not exactly rolling in it. I wish I had more to say about my vocation. I don't. It's dreary, dark and unanswered stillness.
In July 2012 I moved out of my parents' house and moved about 15 minutes away (for Los Angeles, that's a decent distance), and got an apartment with a girl friend. It's nice because it's close to my base office in Torrance and many of the stores and malls in the area.
Since November 2011 I have been working as a social worker/therapist for children. I got to watch (and inwardly cringe while) a 6 year old poured purple glitter on orange playdoh; done a few suicide contracts; discharge some, and tried to convince parents in broken Spanish how "speed" can prevent their kid from flunking the 4th grade the second year in a row.
Since moving out, a Mister Hamster has moved in; the only male allowed to spend the night. =] His name is Sam, and he's quite the quiet, neurotic introverted Syrian hamster. We're on the same temperament wave-length. Might be acquiring a Mr. Bunny in the near future...not sure though.
Finally got the depression & anxiety of the past 3 years old control thanks to chemicals: two years of insomnia finally ending, and three years of yo-yo weight changes stabilizing. Fewer headaches and migraines; less chronic back pain.
Vocation-wise: 3-4 years in the desert/darkness. I go to Mass because I obey; same for Confession, and other trappings of the faith. I started attending the Tridentine Latin Mass almost exclusively August 2011. Wait, you want to know the reason! I could not muster enough energy with depression & fatigue to withstand the Novous Ordo for more than 15 minutes, and then would sit through the rest of the Mass. With the Tridentine, I could get through past Eucharist, which was an hour into the service. I continue to be almost exclusively Tridentine; maybe 3 N.O. masses per year.
Not sure if I mentioned it here, but I had to turn down the acceptance into the convent in June 2009 due to student loans. I still have those loans. I'm a social worker by trade; not exactly rolling in it. I wish I had more to say about my vocation. I don't. It's dreary, dark and unanswered stillness.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
A Rare Sigthing
When was I last on here? Can somone check the time stamp for me?
What's changed?
Where's the vocation?
Still here, going through the desert.
Paying off my loans, which have gone down from 50k to 42k. Hey, I don't make a million as a social worker. They don't pay me very well to make sure kids don't kill or hurt themselves; to help them out of depression or anxiety; or to teach parents to, well, parent; connect kids and parents to community resources.
What's changed?
- Got a job as a social worker at a ADHC November 2010
- Left the job 3weeks prior to being there a year. October 2011
- Got a job as a social worker/therapist November 2011
- Moved out of my parents' place 2 months ago
Where's the vocation?
Still here, going through the desert.
Paying off my loans, which have gone down from 50k to 42k. Hey, I don't make a million as a social worker. They don't pay me very well to make sure kids don't kill or hurt themselves; to help them out of depression or anxiety; or to teach parents to, well, parent; connect kids and parents to community resources.
Monday, August 15, 2011
a thought
I defend.
Noun, subject, verb, predicate. It's a complete sentence; and it's complete thought. Although it's only two words, it's far from simple.
Noun, subject, verb, predicate. It's a complete sentence; and it's complete thought. Although it's only two words, it's far from simple.
What have I been up to?
Not much.
Still working 6hrs/day at the senior day center, and volunteering hours in the evenings at the mental health clinic.Recently downed by a summer cold that had the revenge of winter; I evaded the flu all season. Now I have earaches (plural: 2), pink eye(s), and a cold. I'm bored as being sick sucks all the fun out of skipping out of work.Moved over to the TLM perhaps permanently. Not teaching Confirmation much; becoming a substitute teacher and will help with any, all (?), retreats.Some photography, some quilting.
Note: TLM = Tridentine Latin Mass / Traditional Latin Mass
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