A Rare Sigthing

When was I last on here? Can somone check the time stamp for me?

What's changed?

1. Got a job as a social worker at a ADHC November 2010
2. Left the job 3weeks prior to being there a year. October 2011
3. Got a job as a social worker/therapist November 2011
4. Moved out of my parents' place 2 months ago

Where's the vocation?

Still here, going through the desert.

Paying off my loans, which have gone down from 50k to 42k. Hey, I don't make a million as a social worker. They don't pay me very well to make sure kids don't kill or hurt themselves; to help them out of depression or anxiety; or to teach parents to, well, parent; connect kids and parents to community resources.

I feel miserable.  I'm exhausted, but just like the previous nights, if I try to go to sleep I just lay awake.  Might as well make the most of it and complete IPCs (Individual Plans of Care) for work and plan therapy sessions for internship.  Ate only one meal all day.

Keep hitting brick walls: my boss overlooks me (literally ignores me); tells me that if I don't attend political rallies to keep ADHCs open, that I don't value my job; makes comments about whether I'm ready for the unemployment line.  I'm still completing re-assessments, and didn't get the list of quarterly progress notes until yesterday, and these all have to be completed by the 28th (and no, we're not open on weekends).  I asked the translator if he could help me with a final assessment today, and since he didn't get his paycheck he ignored me as well: walked right past me and didn't heed my request.  Program Director saw it all and she didn't do any thing.  I got my pay check today (we're supposed to be paid on the 5th and 20th of each month), and the boss doesn't have enough funds in the business account for me to cash my check.

If I can't cash the check, I can't go on something I've been wanting to do on the 5th of March.  I need to cash my check and write a check for the one-day retreat.  I need some time to myself and I might not get it without cashing the check.

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Thursdays are going to be my busiest days: work 8-2, internship 3-7:30.

Office Space

So, I handed over a very rough draft of NaNoWriMo 2009 over to my girlfriend so she can read & critique it.  I'm not interested in hearing about grammar and spelling errors at the moment, since so much of the actual story has to be re-written: strengthening characters, booting others out sooner (The challenge: I can't kill him this time!), re-work some of the subplots, and figure out the ending (I know, I should write with the end in mind.).  The plot is still the same, as is the premise - I just need to "play Operation with it" so to speak.  Gosh I hope that makes sense.

I'm in the process of rewriting the novel premise I started in 2008 and promptly ditched for NaNo 2009, and which became NaNo 2010 by default.  I added two additional opening chapters to this one, and so far, it cuts out the need for the original's first four chapters, which sounds bad.  However considering that 22 chapters in I wasn't even close to the climax of the original draft, I've got plenty of room in my playground.  I think I'm pacing things correctly in the timeline ... trying to keep it from going insane.

I'm working on finding a therapist, and I think I've narrowed it down to one.  Now all I need is the nerve to call and make my first appointment.  Just because it's my profession, doesn't make it any easier to make the calls or sit in waiting rooms.

Bought a bright orange flowering plant and stuck it in a lime green container.  I feel it's just snarky enough for the office.  Boss man made comments on how long I worked today: until 4pm.  I'm helping to keep his business open, but not sure how long I can hold the sarcasm back.