Friday, September 14, 2007
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
One of those days ....
It's just one of those days when your coping mechanism runs out, in this case a pack of chewing gum. I bought it on friday, and somehow it lasted me the weekend.
Now though, I don't have any gum and I've long since quit biting my nails ... so I'm left with all this tension because I refuse to give in ..... okay, so I give in every half hour or so ... but that's still progress. On the other hand, the longer I hold out, the more likely I am to resort to other things like skin picking, scratching, or digging my nails into my palms. All because I only learned one behavior modification technique five years ago when I quit therapy.
I should have bought gum at lunch time.
I thought I had one piece left.
Normally I'd just go at it, but there's lots more people around me than I usually allow there to be when I do it. I mean, there's a difference to being in the center of the room and visible from the line of people waiting for a computer than there is to being tucked in a corner or against the wall so people can't see me as well.
If this is what one day is like, then October 1-7th is gonna be the pits. I don't know if I can go a whole week like this, but then maybe I'd actually remember to buy gum.
The tension from my homework is kind of gone now because I've replaced it with tension and a sense of powerlessness since I don't have my chewing gum.
Honestly, you don't know how I feel. Yet, these people do.
Now though, I don't have any gum and I've long since quit biting my nails ... so I'm left with all this tension because I refuse to give in ..... okay, so I give in every half hour or so ... but that's still progress. On the other hand, the longer I hold out, the more likely I am to resort to other things like skin picking, scratching, or digging my nails into my palms. All because I only learned one behavior modification technique five years ago when I quit therapy.
I should have bought gum at lunch time.
I thought I had one piece left.
Normally I'd just go at it, but there's lots more people around me than I usually allow there to be when I do it. I mean, there's a difference to being in the center of the room and visible from the line of people waiting for a computer than there is to being tucked in a corner or against the wall so people can't see me as well.
If this is what one day is like, then October 1-7th is gonna be the pits. I don't know if I can go a whole week like this, but then maybe I'd actually remember to buy gum.
The tension from my homework is kind of gone now because I've replaced it with tension and a sense of powerlessness since I don't have my chewing gum.
Honestly, you don't know how I feel. Yet, these people do.
Friday, September 7, 2007
Where I am at in my discernment
Hello,
I apologize for this email going to all of you en masse, however although I would like to communicate with all of you individually, because of the time demands I now face as a full time graduate student I have significantly cut my time on the computer. In order to shorten the amount of time, I'm doing this massive email to anyone I think would be of interest: friends, acquaintances, and sisters who have been so kind to help me during the past year as I discerned religious life.
I am called to be a religious, but over the last week God has really spoken to me in my heart and I am now seriously considering the Dominican order. I have set things into motion to discern more carefully within the Domincan order. Now, if things were to fall through, I'd still like to be in touch with you (especially those who are in frequent contact - letter, email, etc - and you know who you are).
As for my friends who are getting this, I know it's different that what some of you would be expecting, but I've been in discernment for little more than a year now and I'm so glad and happy and at peace when I think of following the Lord. I pray that you understand.
~*~
Why I have been away:
Middle of August: Cape Cod and Boston, Massachusetts 2 week vacation
Late August: MSW orientation Aug 21-24th, then first week of school on Aug 27th
I have so much reading to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I go to bed around 12-1pm each night and I get up at 5am for my commute downtown for my 8am classes. A little less than sane.
I would love to share more with you, but I didn't bring my notebook with me that has my reflections in it. I can only share the two below:
I apologize for this email going to all of you en masse, however although I would like to communicate with all of you individually, because of the time demands I now face as a full time graduate student I have significantly cut my time on the computer. In order to shorten the amount of time, I'm doing this massive email to anyone I think would be of interest: friends, acquaintances, and sisters who have been so kind to help me during the past year as I discerned religious life.
I am called to be a religious, but over the last week God has really spoken to me in my heart and I am now seriously considering the Dominican order. I have set things into motion to discern more carefully within the Domincan order. Now, if things were to fall through, I'd still like to be in touch with you (especially those who are in frequent contact - letter, email, etc - and you know who you are).
As for my friends who are getting this, I know it's different that what some of you would be expecting, but I've been in discernment for little more than a year now and I'm so glad and happy and at peace when I think of following the Lord. I pray that you understand.
~*~
Why I have been away:
Middle of August: Cape Cod and Boston, Massachusetts 2 week vacation
Late August: MSW orientation Aug 21-24th, then first week of school on Aug 27th
I have so much reading to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I go to bed around 12-1pm each night and I get up at 5am for my commute downtown for my 8am classes. A little less than sane.
I would love to share more with you, but I didn't bring my notebook with me that has my reflections in it. I can only share the two below:
- Our God is a God of Honor.
- We have physical union with Christ in the Eucharist.
Friday, August 24, 2007
Sunday, August 5, 2007
Vacation
I will be away for a short while where I cannot access the internet. I will read and reply to you upon my return at my own convenience.
You can email me, leave comments, or even write letters. All I will not be able to respond to until I return ... but I'd love it all the same!
If you do want to write:
Miss Singer
PO Box 2939
Palos Verdes Peninsula, CA 90274
I'll see you all in a short while. By then I should have done sufficient reading to have some pithy quotes to post, at least!
Take Care,
~ Megan
You can email me, leave comments, or even write letters. All I will not be able to respond to until I return ... but I'd love it all the same!
If you do want to write:
Miss Singer
PO Box 2939
Palos Verdes Peninsula, CA 90274
I'll see you all in a short while. By then I should have done sufficient reading to have some pithy quotes to post, at least!
Take Care,
~ Megan
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