Through various interactions on the internet and through e-mail I have noticed what countless others have: it's an extremely horrible way of communication. Especially when the two in the electronic conversation have two completly different endpoints in mind.

I can only suppose at this point that the emails I am recieving from one particular individual is in response to the manner in which I conduct myself. I am not writing of sinfullness, but of facial expressions, speech, etc. Simply because I walk around on campus as I have someplace to be, or my questions are quite pointed and direct does not mean that I am not at peace with my Lord. I all too often, and I have no shame in this at all, rely on Him to be there for me, whether it is after a night of discussing religion that dredges up old memories better left alone, the anniversary of Roe versus Wade, or a simple conversation that I hadn't the slightest inkling of it being flirtation!

I wish I could say directly to the person that they are far off the mark. I am at peace with my Lord, but I am not at peace with the World. Nor do I ever want to settle into peace with the World, or it is not the World I seek to please.

Philippians 4:4
Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I say rejoice. Joy has been commanded upon us, as has been peace. I have learned in the last few weeks through on-campus ministries that all the things Christ tells us to do are for our benefit.
Further inspection reveals that when the Bible tells us to rejoice in the Lord, it is to be calmly happy and at peace with our God. I am that, yet the recipient of my e-mails does not see this. Oh, if I could be open so he'd understand the true depth to which I am content in God. Linked with this time in my life is the passage admonishing us to not let others see our trife, but to continue to wear anything but sackcloth, to not call attention to ourselves. I take joy in each day I live in the Lord, in the growth of the Spirit within me. I cherish it. Therefore, I am able to move on, live life as the World demands of me in the middle of disease and biopsies and occultic practices and self-disrespect.

Don't judge me based upon what you do not know, lest you be judged the same.