Forget intellectual post.
In school I was able to build up a routine of prayer between my class lecture hours, the extracirricular activities, and study periods. Graduation took away that schedule, and I spend all day, ALL day mind you, looking for jobs. If I'm not online actively looking or driving out to an interview, I'm nagged by my parents for why I'm not looking for a job. Well, let's see: I've been looking since April. It is now the middle of June. If I were to have a job, wouldn't I be having one by now, especially since its the only way for me to pay for graduate school? Mommy & daddy aint gonna pay for me. This university and these two degrees have done nothing but close doors in my face!
I've tried to set up a schedule of prayer and Bible reading for myself. I would like to do it everyday, but because I need to get up early, in order to get the prayers and job hunt done in the same 24 hour period, it's only every other day (MWF). I get up at 5:20am, pray the Rosary, read some psalms, & pray the Angelic Chaplet. Then in the evening I re-read the psalms and note/scribble in a notebook. Sometimes it's prayer, other times its frustrated questions.
I had what I would call a "Samuel Moment" Tuesday evening (~3 AM). It's frustrating to have that sense to just walk out on your life, and ask God "but WHERE do I go?!?"
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I'm still praying.
Matthew 6:34 - do not worry. Tomorrow is in God's hands, and you can't take it away from Him to deal with it yourself. The best way to be upset with God is just to have it out with Him. yell, scream, whatever. I hear doing this in the direction of a crucifix or the Eucharist works best.
And rememeber: you only need one door to be open - the right one. God will never send you things which only cause confusion or doubt and worry, or anything you can't handle by letting Him handle it.
I'm sorry if you've heard this all before. Heck, some of it was definately to me, but yeah.
God bless you Little Sister.
We are definitely in the same boat as to the job thing!
I agree with Hidden One: God ever sends us anything we cannot handle.
Optimism in everything and continue giving priority to your life of prayer.
I will continue praying for you, I hope you pray for me, too...
"Forget intellectual post"???
Well, I went searching in box.net for the old ones but only found pictures.
You see how many of us are now praying for you? How can you ever lose hope with that many people looking after their "little sister".
As the spaniards say, "Animo!"
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