Friday, October 13, 2006

Mish-Mash

The previous post was not my most intellectual.

I'm currently on blogger beta, it is just easier for me to access this blog from my Gmail account, otherwise you'd all be that much more neglected. I don't know if it creates hassles for anyone trying to access my site. The address is the same.

Things are changing. I took a look around my room this morning, looking at the scattered mess of textbooks and wanted to be rid of all that clutter. I see head-scarf wearing women on campus, and start to wonder if I should cover my own head. I don't even need to cover up entirely, maybe just a snood? (Snood is a medieval term, best to use in Google. Calling it a cloth shower cap doesn't do it justice). I know I'm young, and a girl, and therefore society calls us pretty. But, please stop looking at me! This place, called college, perhaps you've heard of it? Men look at women all day long, and I see their eyes. Sometimes they are honorable, other times not. I don't want to be stared at; you know what people ought to stare at? Art!

It's a friday, it's the 13th & I have midterms. You do not get a "normal" post.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Latin Mass? I might actually be able to find one "near" home then.

Monday, October 9, 2006

Am I projecting onto God?

I wonder if I am projecting my own feelings into which order God wants me to join. Why am I still curious about monastic and contemplative orders if I am not to join them? Am I to join them? or not? Why do I find myself wanting more and more silence? wanting less and less people? More and more union with God? With Christ? With Mary and all the Saints? When can I leave this Earth, so I can be with God? If I finish my God-given tasks, fulfill His Will sooner, will I go Home sooner? How can I know His will like that?